“Though He Slay Me, Yet Will I Trust Him”

 Watching my husband suffer so many things in his flesh from all angles and trusting the Lord through it all is understandable of what our forefather Job spoke of when he said, “Though you slay me, yet will I trust Him.”  –My husband has gone through 2 heart attacks, temporary blindness, gout, conjestive heart failure, type 2 diabetes, neuropathy in both feet, stomach ailments, over 20+ surgeries, with 7 of those in losing toes and then eventually both legs amputated below the knees, and on top of it all being on dialysis 3 times a week due to renal failure. Through all of his bodily infirmities…just as Job’s friends sat with him in false accusations and criticism, my husband too has faced these issues. Yet, he will never let go of his integrity! The Lord has given him the strength and power to continue in the faith in his weaknesses. 

I believe just as he does that in the end…he is and will be blessed as righteous Job was! I on the other hand will never be the the foolish wife to tell my husband to curse God and die. That was her story…not mine.  Be strong in the Lord my sweet…this too shall pass!

“Hello everyone, I hope to see you soon!”

The Strongest Man I Know

My husband is the strongest man I know other than Christ! Though he has gone through over 20+ surgeries in his body and currently facing another is nothing short of the power the Lord gives to us when we fully put our trust in Him! At present, he is waiting for a second amputation on his left foot since moving from Florida in December. At first, I didn’t want anyone to know what WE were facing, thinking to be more private about things because of past experiences. Honestly speaking…this is much more rewarding to show the goodness of Christ’s mercy, strength, and love to share with you all what God is doing with us through every trial we face. I mean…look at the smile on this man’s face as he is lying here in the hospital! He never ceases to amaze me of how to stand through the storms of life! I love this wonderful man and am so blessed to have him in my life! God continually uses him to strengthen me in my walk! I love that we are continually praying together. And we have put this situation too in the Lord’s hands to work it out. We know that every doctor and nurse that walks through these doors to care for him…is God ordained. May God’s will forever be done in our lives as we face these trials together in love! I’ll give our testimony after the test.

You Should Have Cut Off Your Child

Unexpectingly, the “prophetess” sent the most devastating message,  and that was, that we should have cut off one of our middle children. She said, “Your husband is losing his middle toe for not cutting off his middle child!” I thought, “Lord Jesus!” While pacing back and forth in the hospital room hallway, I asked, “which child?” The name was then given.

 I managed to sit down with my stomach clinched to unquestionable compacity, and feeling so sick in my stomach…I began searching for the reasons of why this was being told to me. After the phone call ended, I immediately called one of the leaders to get understanding of how this could be so! Upon asking his divine leadership and guidance, I was left shattered after he responded with saying that the Lord hadn’t given him anything concerning this. What? You mean to tell me that the Lord didn’t speak of anything like this to you? Yet, during the phone call he acted upon those words as if it were all true! I knew within me as my husband was being prepped for the surgery that I couldn’t share this with him of what I was just told. I carried so many hard emotions around with me during this time. My insides were beckoning for relief. Yet, there was no one to turn to, but the Lord. At the time my mind was searching for answers, I was stripped of full understanding. “God, please help me!”, I would pray. I felt so alone even though the Lord was with me. I just couldn’t fully perceive Him. I walked for the first few days knowing what was told to me, locked inside. Eating away at my every thought. What’s worse, I knew soon, my husband was going to find out what was said. The leader then made the call.  He told my husband the day after the surgery, that the Lord removed his toe for not cutting off his middle child. I thought I would collapse. Yet, God hadn’t told this leader anything.  And until this day…he repeats the same thing. He has no understanding of these occurances. In fact, in a most recent conversation, he still hasn’t heard anything. 

We have determined, through the Lord’s true leadership of love…we’ll stand upon God’s holy word. Psalm 18:1-6 says, “I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid. The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me. In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.” 

Be Ye Holy

Therefore, with minds that are alert and fully sober, set your hope on the grace to be brought to you when Jesus Christ is revealed at his coming. As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.” – 1 Peter 1:13-16 http://www.biblegateway.com

This verse always speaks to me in reminding me to always be Holy as my Lord and Savior is Holy. Because I love Him who created me and made me new I will always follow and obey His Holy word. If I veer off the path he set for me…I know because He once died and rose again that He is faithful and loving enough to show me His righteous way to Him. I give you Honor today and forevermore Father, in your Most Holy Name Jesus!

New Beginnings

Yesterday, we signed for the purchase of our NEW home in the mountains of North Alabama! This marks the day of NEW beginnings in every part of our lives as we move on to higher heights and deeper depths in the Lord. We are forgetting those things that are behind and pressing towards the mark of the higher calling in Christ Jesus! 

As we get settled in our new home, I will post pictures periodically of this beautiful home the Lord gave us. Until then, be blessed and we’ll update you soon!

Build Your Hopes On Things Eternal

I remember the beautiful days when uncertainty came while sitting in service. One of the saints would strike out a song like the one that’s in my heart this morning… “Hold to His hand, God’s unchanging hand. Hold to His hand, God’s unchanging hand. You better build your hopes on things eternal…Hold to God’s unchanging hand.” Those were the days when one song lasted for 25 mins or someone started dancing in the spirit. Some of you may not understand what that is. But it is so real! The Lord would just take over and people would be healed, delivered, and set free! I’ve witnessed many as well as myself being quickened by God. God made us alive unto Him. He filled us with His Holy Spirit. We are no longer dead in sin. So also when the days come where you may not know what to put on your table to feed your children, or how to pay your bill that is at it’s last notice, and your children are acting all unseemly, or if you will even rise up the next morning because the doctor said there’s nothing left that he can do…You have to HOLD to God’s hand, His unchanging hand. You have to build your hopes on things ETERNAL. God’s hand never changes! Be encouraged in the Lord.

Peace that Passeth All Understanding

Tonight, I indulge in the peace that only comes from the presence of the Lord. No man can give the comfort as the Lord God Almighty gives. I give Him Honor, thanks, and praise for ALL He has done and about to do in my life. To think back of all He has brought my family through…He’s just so worthy! I forgive ALL of those who has wronged us. I can’t hold those things in my heart. That would cripple my walk in Christ. And…it’s just not worth it. I may write about the past…but it’s because WE’RE FREE! Thank you Jesus for YOUR peace.

Grieved

As I sit outside this morning,  my heart is heavy.  The Lord is calling for much fasting and praying. Something is coming that we all must be prepared for.  I’m thankful for what God is doing… but it doesn’t take away the fact that you know trouble is brewing.  Lord, help your people to get it together and fully submit themselves unto  you.  Bless us to continue to look up because our redemption draweth nigh.  In Jesus Name… Amen.

Heaven’s Best

I give honor to the Lord Most High for saving my soul and blessing me to be baptized in JESUS Name and filling me with HIS SPIRIT!! He blessed me with such a great and wonderful family!! I married my best friend Stewart whom I truly thank God for! These years are our best years ever! Each and every day I love him more and more. We walk together on one accord through God’s Holy Spirit! I praise the Lord that no matter what we go through in life we continue to pray together and put it all in God’s hands. 

Lately, for the past few months we join together on the porch at 4am to pray. Those days I don’t make it out there on time is so disappointing. I truly dispise waking up and seeing he’s left already for dialysis and we didn’t pray together. I know some days he chooses not to awaken me feeling like I need more rest. I do appreciate his loving thoughts towards me. But…”Lord tell him to wake me, because I really enjoy the fellowship with Heaven’s Best…in Jesus Name…Amen!”

Afraid

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November 4, 2016

“Your Baby Has A Demon”

During one prayer service, the atmosphere frightened a few of the little ones in the midst of us. After service, one leader said to me concerning my daughter, “I started to pray for her, she needs that demon cast out of her!” I thought within myself why he didn’t speak the same thing over another child that was merely afraid of the things going on here? And…why would you say that concerning your own close relative? Or any frightened child for that matter? This happened frequently with some of the babies. My heart was continually grieved concerning how much my children were singled out with these types of things. No other children, unless they didn’t care much for them, which was MOST of the children there… were spoken against. My family along with a few others were on the top of the list. Even in my home visit with them, I would hear how much they didn’t like this one or that one. When one of my older daughters heard what was spoken about her youngest sister, she was extremely hurt… And naturally so. If you thought of bringing these hurts to their attention it would be to your disadvantage! You would hear about it over the pulpit as you need to get over it and because HE spoke it, then it must be true! You learned that your feelings don’t matter and would normally be crushed over and over again. My baby nor any other babies there has “demons.” In fact, my daughter recently received the Holy Ghost… and no “demon” was cast out of her in order to receive God’s Spirit. We did pray for the Lord to remove the fear since leaving that congregation. At one point and time she would never allow anyone there to pray for her. She was very afraid of them. Because she felt something very wrong.