Unexpectingly, the “prophetess” sent the most devastating message, and that was, that we should have cut off one of our middle children. She said, “Your husband is losing his middle toe for not cutting off his middle child!” I thought, “Lord Jesus!” While pacing back and forth in the hospital room hallway, I asked, “which child?” The name was then given.
I managed to sit down with my stomach clinched to unquestionable compacity, and feeling so sick in my stomach…I began searching for the reasons of why this was being told to me. After the phone call ended, I immediately called one of the leaders to get understanding of how this could be so! Upon asking his divine leadership and guidance, I was left shattered after he responded with saying that the Lord hadn’t given him anything concerning this. What? You mean to tell me that the Lord didn’t speak of anything like this to you? Yet, during the phone call he acted upon those words as if it were all true! I knew within me as my husband was being prepped for the surgery that I couldn’t share this with him of what I was just told. I carried so many hard emotions around with me during this time. My insides were beckoning for relief. Yet, there was no one to turn to, but the Lord. At the time my mind was searching for answers, I was stripped of full understanding. “God, please help me!”, I would pray. I felt so alone even though the Lord was with me. I just couldn’t fully perceive Him. I walked for the first few days knowing what was told to me, locked inside. Eating away at my every thought. What’s worse, I knew soon, my husband was going to find out what was said. The leader then made the call. He told my husband the day after the surgery, that the Lord removed his toe for not cutting off his middle child. I thought I would collapse. Yet, God hadn’t told this leader anything. And until this day…he repeats the same thing. He has no understanding of these occurances. In fact, in a most recent conversation, he still hasn’t heard anything.
We have determined, through the Lord’s true leadership of love…we’ll stand upon God’s holy word. Psalm 18:1-6 says, “I will love thee, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies. The sorrows of death compassed me, and the floods of ungodly men made me afraid. The sorrows of hell compassed me about: the snares of death prevented me. In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried unto my God: he heard my voice out of his temple, and my cry came before him, even into his ears.”
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