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Beyond Church Hurt

October 27, 2016

Whispers Became Louder


When dealing with these people, they would suck you into their family as though one of their own, then drop you into the fire! They spoke many false things into the ears of all desperate ones willing to please God in order to be right with Him. Their whispers became louder and louder till soon it became a normal thing for your name to be called out during one of the weekly prophesying episodes in the midst of service.  Suddenly interrupting the service one would yell, “Jonathan! Jonothan! Jonothan! Come come come…come to me! Your not obeying my voice, Jonothan! I lie not! I lie not! Come unto me! Hearken, hearken! Lest, I destroy you Jonothan! Come come come!” With tongues following or in between the belting out of this word for you. You knew to take heed.  Jonothan…feeling the fear take hold of him, trembling and completely broken, walks to the front of the church in full submission, begging God not to destroy him. Jonothan is one who was praying, submitting to the leaders, and yet seeking for the Holy Ghost to fill him. He wants to do everything to please God. So, unknowingly he steps before them in full submission and fear, ready to whatever is asked of him. Later finds himself turning on his entire family, whom by the way is doomed for destruction by the time they finished whispering to him. He is now believing every word spoken out of their mouths. He’s now in total fear. Jonothan is a name used to show you how the enemy is operating in the church. This is one of many who have fallen prey to Satan’s devices to bring you into bondage. Fear. Doubt. Unbelief. If you tried to doubt them, a prophecy was spoken over you that you were not following God anymore. So, miserably you’d obey every word! If you dared speak to anyone of your concerns, it was made known and brought out during the service. Never was a word given until it was made known unto them. “Lord, stop the whispers and false prophecies”, I prayed. Yet, they continue…



Prophecy Destruction I

October 27, 2016

Is There A Word Called Proph-a-lying

Seeing over 30 plus people leaving the church, for the impending destruction that was spoken over their lives, left my stomach in a knot! Including my own soon to be disturbing death that was said I would endure, I was literally scared to the core of my soul. If you didn’t line up to the standards that they expected you were destined for destruction. You were sentenced to death without a fair trial! I’m speaking of the church people! This was not a joke! Your life was subject to the laws of church or you weren’t saved anymore. Point blank. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. Go on vacation? Wait…did you get permission for that? Okay, God said you’re not being obedient! This was many of the numerous laws governing your lifestyle all while serving the Lord with a pure heart. Did I pray? Indeed. This is when the Lord constantly told me that these things were not from Him. I struggled day after day with the fact that this leader was to be looked up to. That they were my guide, and they were the ones God placed before me to follow. As time went forth, I stayed on my knees pleading for my life and for the truth behind what was happening. “Lord, is this really what your saying? God, am I going to die for wanting to go on a vacation to spend time away from it all? Lord Jesus, help me. Help us.” In His audible still small voice as many know Him as, He said, “Noooo.” Because of the leadership they had on everyone there, you had no room for error. You did as you were told or out came some great prophecy against your life or maybe just a horrific phone call. This is when your heart drops to the floor while staring at the phone. Should I answer? You knew what would happen if you didn’t. I immediately started exiting the children that were in my room to the doorway so not to show how deeply afraid I was. My cheeks filling with heat and my lips beginning to turn pale, they marched out of the room. My stomach began to crunch and the pit of it was tightened. My hands starting to perspire I gripped the phone as I heard the ring tone of death continuing to chime. Prayers instantly filled my mind searching for what words I would say. Suddenly, pains dispersed through my head as thousands of shooting darts filled my neck and shoulders and began crawling down my back all while a massive headache rested on the verge of explosion. My heart pounded so I thought I would just collapse. Fear had taken hold of me within a matter of a few seconds. Pacing back and forth, stomach tightened to capacity, I took in some of the deepest breaths of my life, with fingers trembling I managed to tap the call button on my cell phone. I forcefully whispered and slipped out “hello?”

To be continued…

Prophecy Destruction II

October 26, 2016

Though warnings were coming, full understanding wasn’t fully manifested to prepare us for what Satan had in mind against our beautiful family. This goes beyond church hurt. They were trying to destroy us.

(Excerpt from Prophecy Destruction I)

In continuance, our walk with Christ in the beginning was powerful, encouraging, and we believed we could endure anything that came our way! We walked with the confidence of knowing Christ saved us and set us free from sin and bondage! No matter what the enemy’s tactics were, we overthrew them by our strong faith in God! We were troubled on every side, yet not distressed. We were perplexed, yet not in despair. Strong and mighty in the faith! But let me tell you…the days came when we didn’t know whether we would ever make it out alive in this church, and we didn’t know which way to turn. All manner of strength, was nowhere to be found! Most had to flee for their lives! Satan attacked every individual that named the name of Christ. Our friends were completely separated from us. One of our sons was no longer allowed to speak to one of his long childhood friends. All of our daughters were separated from their friends and then plucked off one by one, and then pitted against each other. Next, they told each of our children to never again follow us, because we were on our way to hell! Each one of them were told they were going to die! One of my younger daughters during a revival, was told she was a witch. In fact, during this service, my younger son was attacked when some of the younger teens began with their prophecies saying he was going to be destroyed. Later, it was made known that this all stemmed from something spoken against him in the teens’ home earlier that day by their parent. There was a vendetta against him for whatever reason and it all showed up during the revival. My daughter took off out the door and ran all the way down the street! It took one of the more sensible leaders to run after her and persuade her to return! He made it known after his retrieval of her. During his request to God, He said, “Lord, if this is not YOUR Spirit, at the sound of my voice…let everything cease!” As he spoke in a very loud voice, “In the Name of Jesus, STOP!”

To be continued…