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The Waves

Waves of the ocean are tossed to and fro. Just as a man in his mind can be tossed. We must walk with a solid mind set on Christ. Though trials come at us at every angle, we trust God to see us through not compromising and being conformed to this world. Our minds are to be transformed and renewed by His word every day. Waves are tossed and driven in directions never seen before because no two waves are alike. We are not to be this way. One wouldn’t be able to tell who we are. We are in Christ, so we must show forth His love in us. We stand upon a solid foundation so that when the waves come we don’t get moved out of our place in Him. Be holy and unwavering. Be blessed.

Since When Does the Teacher Speak During the Test?

I’m sure every one of us having taken tests during our lifespan, realizes that the teacher rarely speaks during the test. In fact, most assuredly the teacher walks throughout the room in most occurances and watches every pupil. Looking over your shoulder at times letting you know of his/her presence. Yet, not saying a word. Watching you to see how your going to make it through without looking onto someone else’s paper.  As with the Lord, I’ve learned that He rarely speaks during our tests. In fact, when you call out to Him, He will answer but it seems like He doesn’t say as much as you would desire. You have to be confident that you can ace this test with flying colors. That’s when you revert back to all of the studying you’ve done in your handy book (God’s Word). Which is why we must really take lots of notes in your studies. We never know when the Lord is going to throw a pop quiz at us! Does God want us to pass? Absolutely! In fact, He stands over you at times just hoping your going to get every single answer right! I remember one time my teacher was following along with me during a test I was taking on the computer and I had no knowledge that’s what she was doing…yet she was getting excited over my answers! Honestly though, when she finally told me after I completed the test that she was watching, I was thereafter very nervous that I’d make a mistake and she would see it. She probably regretted telling me this but she still wanted me to get an A…which I did came close. She told me many times that I was a perfectionalist. At first, I didn’t feel that that was my case but I’ve come to realize the truth. I hate the fact of failing. I did many times in test taking, go back to make sure every answer was correct. I had to make 100 or it wasn’t good enough. So, it is in my day to day living. But, making an excellent score is not always good. I have to leave room for failure, so as not to become critical in my thinking. God knows were going to not get things right. But that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t do our very best in our trials. Trusting Him, praying, and studying His word will ensure the best outcome for us all. The fact that we did our best during the test, while He watches us silently, is what He requires from us. Whether we come out with an A or not, we tried our best. If the best we could do was a C…no worries, God knows our hearts. So, the greatest thing we can do is study to show ourselves approved and watch out for those pop quizzes and know that the finals will come! Remember also that our professor is standing watch over us! And have you noticed once you complete the test how much conversation you engage in when you find out your scores…He will speak again, to rejoice in your victory!

You’ll Never Leave This House

“You’ll never leave this house and you are not allowed to talk to your parents, because your parents are going to DIE, so you two will have to take care of all the younger kids!”, they said to my daughters. This lie was spoken to them during a time of mass confusion and many of the church members were then damaged in their faith. I also remember one of the leaders coming to our home telling us the Lord was angry with us for whatever reason and that we were going to die. A week later he made a phone call to my husband and said the Lord changed His mind. I know, it sounds dumb. But when your faith at the time was being shaken to the core…you questioned the very air you breathed. Fear was a regularity in much of the lives of many. We stayed on our face so much I think it could have become a part of the carpet. If it wasn’t for the Lord who was on our side, where would we be? I thank God for the beauty of holiness and truth. The Lord kept speaking to me through His word, saying, “I Am the Lord and I changeth not”. “I love you and you shall live and NOT die”. Those words had to seep down into my spirit. I hid them in my heart.

That was then and this is now. We HAVE moved. We now live in North Alabama. And as much as the enemy wanted to steal, kill, and destroy us. It didn’t work! We’ve moved higher in our faith and closer to our God! Restoration and healing has taken place and is a continual daily task for all of us. Leaving Florida was a matter of leaving our past behind us. We were leaving the lies, deception, and the pain. We left that house and I never looked back. Satan, once again has been made the father of lies as he always will be. We are yet ALIVE, we are FORGIVING and because of that, we are FREE! The photo above is the newly purchased home the LORD gave us. We have the deed to this home! Yes, we completely OWN this beautiful mountain home! Jesus will ALWAYS prove your enemies wrong. Hold on to your faith in Him!
So, with that being said…the home on the top is our Winter Park house that we’d never move from and the one on the bottom is our North Alabama home we moved to! God will NEVER LIE! What God has for you, it is for you! Amen? AMEN!

“Though He Slay Me, Yet Will I Trust Him”

Watching my husband suffer so many things in his flesh from all angles and trusting the Lord through it all is understandable of what our forefather Job spoke of when he said, “Though you slay me, yet will I trust Him.”  –My husband has gone through 2 heart attacks, temporary blindness, gout, congestive heart failure, type 2 diabetes, neuropathy in both feet, stomach ailments, over 20+ surgeries, with 7 of those in losing toes and then eventually both legs amputated below the knees, and on top of it all being on dialysis 3 times a week due to renal failure. Through all of his bodily infirmities…just as Job’s friends sat with him in false accusations and criticism, my husband too has faced these issues. Yet, he will never let go of his integrity! The Lord has given him the strength and power to continue in the faith in his weaknesses. 

I believe just as he does that in the end…he is and will be blessed as righteous Job was! I on the other hand will never be the foolish wife to tell my husband to curse God and die. That was her story…not mine.  Be strong in the Lord my sweet…this too shall pass!

“Hello everyone, I hope to see you soon!”

Beyond Church Hurt

October 27, 2016

Whispers Became Louder


When dealing with these people, they would suck you into their family as though one of their own, then drop you into the fire! They spoke many false things into the ears of all desperate ones willing to please God in order to be right with Him. Their whispers became louder and louder till soon it became a normal thing for your name to be called out during one of the weekly prophesying episodes in the midst of service.  Suddenly interrupting the service one would yell, “Jonathan! Jonothan! Jonothan! Come come come…come to me! Your not obeying my voice, Jonothan! I lie not! I lie not! Come unto me! Hearken, hearken! Lest, I destroy you Jonothan! Come come come!” With tongues following or in between the belting out of this word for you. You knew to take heed.  Jonothan…feeling the fear take hold of him, trembling and completely broken, walks to the front of the church in full submission, begging God not to destroy him. Jonothan is one who was praying, submitting to the leaders, and yet seeking for the Holy Ghost to fill him. He wants to do everything to please God. So, unknowingly he steps before them in full submission and fear, ready to whatever is asked of him. Later finds himself turning on his entire family, whom by the way is doomed for destruction by the time they finished whispering to him. He is now believing every word spoken out of their mouths. He’s now in total fear. Jonothan is a name used to show you how the enemy is operating in the church. This is one of many who have fallen prey to Satan’s devices to bring you into bondage. Fear. Doubt. Unbelief. If you tried to doubt them, a prophecy was spoken over you that you were not following God anymore. So, miserably you’d obey every word! If you dared speak to anyone of your concerns, it was made known and brought out during the service. Never was a word given until it was made known unto them. “Lord, stop the whispers and false prophecies”, I prayed. Yet, they continue…



Prophecy Destruction I

October 27, 2016

Is There A Word Called Proph-a-lying

Seeing over 30 plus people leaving the church, for the impending destruction that was spoken over their lives, left my stomach in a knot! Including my own soon to be disturbing death that was said I would endure, I was literally scared to the core of my soul. If you didn’t line up to the standards that they expected you were destined for destruction. You were sentenced to death without a fair trial! I’m speaking of the church people! This was not a joke! Your life was subject to the laws of church or you weren’t saved anymore. Point blank. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. Go on vacation? Wait…did you get permission for that? Okay, God said you’re not being obedient! This was many of the numerous laws governing your lifestyle all while serving the Lord with a pure heart. Did I pray? Indeed. This is when the Lord constantly told me that these things were not from Him. I struggled day after day with the fact that this leader was to be looked up to. That they were my guide, and they were the ones God placed before me to follow. As time went forth, I stayed on my knees pleading for my life and for the truth behind what was happening. “Lord, is this really what your saying? God, am I going to die for wanting to go on a vacation to spend time away from it all? Lord Jesus, help me. Help us.” In His audible still small voice as many know Him as, He said, “Noooo.” Because of the leadership they had on everyone there, you had no room for error. You did as you were told or out came some great prophecy against your life or maybe just a horrific phone call. This is when your heart drops to the floor while staring at the phone. Should I answer? You knew what would happen if you didn’t. I immediately started exiting the children that were in my room to the doorway so not to show how deeply afraid I was. My cheeks filling with heat and my lips beginning to turn pale, they marched out of the room. My stomach began to crunch and the pit of it was tightened. My hands starting to perspire I gripped the phone as I heard the ring tone of death continuing to chime. Prayers instantly filled my mind searching for what words I would say. Suddenly, pains dispersed through my head as thousands of shooting darts filled my neck and shoulders and began crawling down my back all while a massive headache rested on the verge of explosion. My heart pounded so I thought I would just collapse. Fear had taken hold of me within a matter of a few seconds. Pacing back and forth, stomach tightened to capacity, I took in some of the deepest breaths of my life, with fingers trembling I managed to tap the call button on my cell phone. I forcefully whispered and slipped out “hello?”

To be continued…

Prophecy Destruction II

October 26, 2016

Though warnings were coming, full understanding wasn’t fully manifested to prepare us for what Satan had in mind against our beautiful family. This goes beyond church hurt. They were trying to destroy us.

(Excerpt from Prophecy Destruction I)

In continuance, our walk with Christ in the beginning was powerful, encouraging, and we believed we could endure anything that came our way! We walked with the confidence of knowing Christ saved us and set us free from sin and bondage! No matter what the enemy’s tactics were, we overthrew them by our strong faith in God! We were troubled on every side, yet not distressed. We were perplexed, yet not in despair. Strong and mighty in the faith! But let me tell you…the days came when we didn’t know whether we would ever make it out alive in this church, and we didn’t know which way to turn. All manner of strength, was nowhere to be found! Most had to flee for their lives! Satan attacked every individual that named the name of Christ. Our friends were completely separated from us. One of our sons was no longer allowed to speak to one of his long childhood friends. All of our daughters were separated from their friends and then plucked off one by one, and then pitted against each other. Next, they told each of our children to never again follow us, because we were on our way to hell! Each one of them were told they were going to die! One of my younger daughters during a revival, was told she was a witch. In fact, during this service, my younger son was attacked when some of the younger teens began with their prophecies saying he was going to be destroyed. Later, it was made known that this all stemmed from something spoken against him in the teens’ home earlier that day by their parent. There was a vendetta against him for whatever reason and it all showed up during the revival. My daughter took off out the door and ran all the way down the street! It took one of the more sensible leaders to run after her and persuade her to return! He made it known after his retrieval of her. During his request to God, He said, “Lord, if this is not YOUR Spirit, at the sound of my voice…let everything cease!” As he spoke in a very loud voice, “In the Name of Jesus, STOP!”

To be continued…