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Lost Identity, Lost Purpose

Many of us feel like we’ve lost our identity and lost our purpose in life. We walk around wondering, “What am I supposed to be doing?” We start asking, “Lord, what is my purpose?” – Have you lost your identity?

We all lost our identity when Adam and Eve sinned in the garden. But thanks be to God, that He sent His Son to die for our sins and restore us back to His own image! I’m thankful in knowing that my purpose in life is to show forth and walk in the image of Christ. The nine fruit of the spirit now live in me. I have become love! Just as God is LOVE, I am to love. His fruit abides in me and now I am the image of Christ that was lost in the fall of man! Every time I look in the mirror, I’m looking at Jesus! I am His NEW creation! Old things have passed away, behold all things have become NEW! His glory is shown every day I walk in His Spirit! I no longer have to walk in the fall of man with the attitudes that came with the fall. Since I was born, no one had to teach me how to act up, get attitudes, fight, and do bad things. It came with the fall. Which is why I had to be BORN AGAIN! And if at any moment I tend to forget, I have an advocate with the Father, who is Christ Jesus! I’ve been set free and know my purpose! My identity has been redeemed by the Father. My body is His temple! And He lives and breathes through me! So therefore, my identity and purpose is no longer lost. Amen? Amen.

Fall In Alabama

Looking out over my banister on my back deck is most rewarding in the beauty God created for His children to indulge in, especially in the fall of Alabama. As I sit here, there’s a glistening breeze sweeping gently across my cheeks. My hair catches the coolness across the tops of my grays. The differentiated birds offer praise to the one who created them for the abundance of supply they’ve awakened to. Many buzzes, chirps, and calls echo through the mountain today, all giving attendance to the daily tasks set before them. All too often I continue to hear the drops of broken branches that give way to the ground below them for no longer are they able to remain attached to their previous homes. Life was lost in them. God shows me His people. They too lost the life they once lived. No longer do they hold to their homes. They’ve faded from true holiness. Some plunder to the ground and some gently fade in the distance as a flower blows from it’s stem to an unfamiliar place. The foundation of the Lord is strong and sure, full of life and never fades away. It’s forever green. -As I watch each leaf float to the ground my heart begins to wrench for seeing the fall of God’s people everyday. Though the leaves fail, God’s unfailing love continues so his children return unto Him. New branches do appear. This is fall in Alabama, arise and be made new.

The Waves

Waves of the ocean are tossed to and fro. Just as a man in his mind can be tossed. We must walk with a solid mind set on Christ. Though trials come at us at every angle, we trust God to see us through not compromising and being conformed to this world. Our minds are to be transformed and renewed by His word every day. Waves are tossed and driven in directions never seen before because no two waves are alike. We are not to be this way. One wouldn’t be able to tell who we are. We are in Christ, so we must show forth His love in us. We stand upon a solid foundation so that when the waves come we don’t get moved out of our place in Him. Be holy and unwavering. Be blessed.

One Of Those Days

You ever had one of those days where you just don’t feel like doing anything? Then you kinda feel guilty because you could have gotten so much done…well today is one of those days! But this I do know, I have accomplished that what the Lord knew was going to get done through me today.

As I rose this morning, I began to pray and thank the Lord for all He has given me. I thanked him for my husband, my children, and the saints of God He placed in my life at this particular time. I then began to feel His presence shower down upon me like a cool rain! His anointing is so powerful and so holy it is really hard to explain in words! I thanked Him for His Spirit dwelling on the inside of me! He spoke to my spirit in letting me know what He has in store for my family. God is just so amazing! I love to just talk with Him as though I could see Him face to face. I thanked the Lord for the beautiful home He gave us that we honor Him with. I just thank Him! I owe Him so much praise just for even the littlest things we take for granted. Another day on this side of the dirt is such a blessing! So many didn’t rise today. Or make it through this evening! I heard an elder say…when you think of ALL the goodness God has shown us we owe God praise and it’s time to pay up! So, I praise Jesus for everything He’s EVER done for me, through me, around me, and in me! I thank him for the good and the bad! If it wasn’t for my enemies coming against me I wouldn’t have prayed my way through, fought my way through, and trusted God through it all! I wouldn’t have gotten the promotion He gave to me! My enemies brought about a great change! I praise God for it! For that…I ought to make some phone calls and tell the enemy, “I just want to thank you!” “Thank you…for the promotion!” This is why I love to confuse the enemy when I’m going through a trial! While He’s looking for me to hold my head down, I will lift up my voice and give God a high praise! Jesus! Jesus! Jesus! I think I’m going to pause my writing right now, because I feel a praise stirring up in my spirit…and I owe God a praise! I’m paying up! You know what,

This is one of those days…

To be continued….thank you Jesus!

Making a House a Home

So, this is the before pictures of our new house in North Alabama our Great God gave to us up on a mountain. He blessed us with a 3 story, 5 bedrooms, 5 baths, 4 1/2 car garage, 3700 sq ft, 1.50 acres, with a basement! 

When I look at what he blessed us with it still leaves me in awe of how wonderful He is!

As we (more like I) decorate this new house making it into our new home…I’ll update the photos! 

Meanwhile, I hope you have fun watching!

You’ll Never Leave This House

“You’ll never leave this house and you are not allowed to talk to your parents, because your parents are going to DIE, so you two will have to take care of all the younger kids!”, they said to my daughters. This lie was spoken to them during a time of mass confusion and many of the church members were then damaged in their faith. I also remember one of the leaders coming to our home telling us the Lord was angry with us for whatever reason and that we were going to die. A week later he made a phone call to my husband and said the Lord changed His mind. I know, it sounds dumb. But when your faith at the time was being shaken to the core…you questioned the very air you breathed. Fear was a regularity in much of the lives of many. We stayed on our face so much I think it could have become a part of the carpet. If it wasn’t for the Lord who was on our side, where would we be? I thank God for the beauty of holiness and truth. The Lord kept speaking to me through His word, saying, “I Am the Lord and I changeth not”. “I love you and you shall live and NOT die”. Those words had to seep down into my spirit. I hid them in my heart.

That was then and this is now. We HAVE moved. We now live in North Alabama. And as much as the enemy wanted to steal, kill, and destroy us. It didn’t work! We’ve moved higher in our faith and closer to our God! Restoration and healing has taken place and is a continual daily task for all of us. Leaving Florida was a matter of leaving our past behind us. We were leaving the lies, deception, and the pain. We left that house and I never looked back. Satan, once again has been made the father of lies as he always will be. We are yet ALIVE, we are FORGIVING and because of that, we are FREE! The photo above is the newly purchased home the LORD gave us. We have the deed to this home! Yes, we completely OWN this beautiful mountain home! Jesus will ALWAYS prove your enemies wrong. Hold on to your faith in Him!
So, with that being said…the home on the top is our Winter Park house that we’d never move from and the one on the bottom is our North Alabama home we moved to! God will NEVER LIE! What God has for you, it is for you! Amen? AMEN!

“Though He Slay Me, Yet Will I Trust Him”

Watching my husband suffer so many things in his flesh from all angles and trusting the Lord through it all is understandable of what our forefather Job spoke of when he said, “Though you slay me, yet will I trust Him.”  –My husband has gone through 2 heart attacks, temporary blindness, gout, congestive heart failure, type 2 diabetes, neuropathy in both feet, stomach ailments, over 20+ surgeries, with 7 of those in losing toes and then eventually both legs amputated below the knees, and on top of it all being on dialysis 3 times a week due to renal failure. Through all of his bodily infirmities…just as Job’s friends sat with him in false accusations and criticism, my husband too has faced these issues. Yet, he will never let go of his integrity! The Lord has given him the strength and power to continue in the faith in his weaknesses. 

I believe just as he does that in the end…he is and will be blessed as righteous Job was! I on the other hand will never be the foolish wife to tell my husband to curse God and die. That was her story…not mine.  Be strong in the Lord my sweet…this too shall pass!

“Hello everyone, I hope to see you soon!”

Build Your Hopes On Things Eternal

I remember the beautiful days when uncertainty came while sitting in service. One of the saints would strike out a song like the one that’s in my heart this morning… “Hold to His hand, God’s unchanging hand. Hold to His hand, God’s unchanging hand. You better build your hopes on things eternal…Hold to God’s unchanging hand.” Those were the days when one song lasted for 25 mins or someone started dancing in the spirit. Some of you may not understand what that is. But it is so real! The Lord would just take over and people would be healed, delivered, and set free! I’ve witnessed many as well as myself being quickened by God. God made us alive unto Him. He filled us with His Holy Spirit. We are no longer dead in sin. So also when the days come where you may not know what to put on your table to feed your children, or how to pay your bill that is at it’s last notice, and your children are acting all unseemly, or if you will even rise up the next morning because the doctor said there’s nothing left that he can do…You have to HOLD to God’s hand, His unchanging hand. You have to build your hopes on things ETERNAL. God’s hand never changes! Be encouraged in the Lord.

Beyond Church Hurt

October 27, 2016

Whispers Became Louder


When dealing with these people, they would suck you into their family as though one of their own, then drop you into the fire! They spoke many false things into the ears of all desperate ones willing to please God in order to be right with Him. Their whispers became louder and louder till soon it became a normal thing for your name to be called out during one of the weekly prophesying episodes in the midst of service.  Suddenly interrupting the service one would yell, “Jonathan! Jonothan! Jonothan! Come come come…come to me! Your not obeying my voice, Jonothan! I lie not! I lie not! Come unto me! Hearken, hearken! Lest, I destroy you Jonothan! Come come come!” With tongues following or in between the belting out of this word for you. You knew to take heed.  Jonothan…feeling the fear take hold of him, trembling and completely broken, walks to the front of the church in full submission, begging God not to destroy him. Jonothan is one who was praying, submitting to the leaders, and yet seeking for the Holy Ghost to fill him. He wants to do everything to please God. So, unknowingly he steps before them in full submission and fear, ready to whatever is asked of him. Later finds himself turning on his entire family, whom by the way is doomed for destruction by the time they finished whispering to him. He is now believing every word spoken out of their mouths. He’s now in total fear. Jonothan is a name used to show you how the enemy is operating in the church. This is one of many who have fallen prey to Satan’s devices to bring you into bondage. Fear. Doubt. Unbelief. If you tried to doubt them, a prophecy was spoken over you that you were not following God anymore. So, miserably you’d obey every word! If you dared speak to anyone of your concerns, it was made known and brought out during the service. Never was a word given until it was made known unto them. “Lord, stop the whispers and false prophecies”, I prayed. Yet, they continue…



Prophecy Destruction I

October 27, 2016

Is There A Word Called Proph-a-lying

Seeing over 30 plus people leaving the church, for the impending destruction that was spoken over their lives, left my stomach in a knot! Including my own soon to be disturbing death that was said I would endure, I was literally scared to the core of my soul. If you didn’t line up to the standards that they expected you were destined for destruction. You were sentenced to death without a fair trial! I’m speaking of the church people! This was not a joke! Your life was subject to the laws of church or you weren’t saved anymore. Point blank. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. Go on vacation? Wait…did you get permission for that? Okay, God said you’re not being obedient! This was many of the numerous laws governing your lifestyle all while serving the Lord with a pure heart. Did I pray? Indeed. This is when the Lord constantly told me that these things were not from Him. I struggled day after day with the fact that this leader was to be looked up to. That they were my guide, and they were the ones God placed before me to follow. As time went forth, I stayed on my knees pleading for my life and for the truth behind what was happening. “Lord, is this really what your saying? God, am I going to die for wanting to go on a vacation to spend time away from it all? Lord Jesus, help me. Help us.” In His audible still small voice as many know Him as, He said, “Noooo.” Because of the leadership they had on everyone there, you had no room for error. You did as you were told or out came some great prophecy against your life or maybe just a horrific phone call. This is when your heart drops to the floor while staring at the phone. Should I answer? You knew what would happen if you didn’t. I immediately started exiting the children that were in my room to the doorway so not to show how deeply afraid I was. My cheeks filling with heat and my lips beginning to turn pale, they marched out of the room. My stomach began to crunch and the pit of it was tightened. My hands starting to perspire I gripped the phone as I heard the ring tone of death continuing to chime. Prayers instantly filled my mind searching for what words I would say. Suddenly, pains dispersed through my head as thousands of shooting darts filled my neck and shoulders and began crawling down my back all while a massive headache rested on the verge of explosion. My heart pounded so I thought I would just collapse. Fear had taken hold of me within a matter of a few seconds. Pacing back and forth, stomach tightened to capacity, I took in some of the deepest breaths of my life, with fingers trembling I managed to tap the call button on my cell phone. I forcefully whispered and slipped out “hello?”

To be continued…